Nyasar di Jalan

seharusnya semua orang menyadari kalau berjudi itu lebih banyak ruginya. tapi seperti kebanyakan orang, aku juga kalau "kena" dalam frekuensi yang tepat akan sulit melepaskan diri. bukan berarti judi seperti menggunakan dadu tapi lebih ke seperti taruhan dengan faktor ketidakpastian yang besar sekali dan meskipun tahu kalau the house always win  ya tetap saja melakukannya. kan pengen profit...

i want to get an espresso. been a long time not taking one shot (or two!). lately i only drank black unfiltered coffee, no sugar. sometimes, it would be black coffee, regular americano, or maybe long black. i prefer to have my coffee black. i find myself unable to enjoy these trendy coffee around where i work or live. so many brands but basically coffee and sweet milk. a good thing, i don't spend too much on these expensive coffee. coffee is good if you can enjoy it without any additional ingredients. but this is just a personal opinion.

losing money. i tend to think that i am smart than most people surrounding me in a daily basis but when i get to expand the circle just a little bit then wham! i am reminded how little i know about the real world and how people will not even acknowledge my level of knowledge. that i am just a nobody. that hurts. i told myself that i know a lot then act upon that information that i thought would be enough. many times, i get told that i know nothing. that my decision making is flawed. that i am not getting better, not learning from past mistakes. you know what? at least i know that i do not know. then i will try to learn more just to get that fraction of information / knowledge to add to my brain. i will prevail. i should.

melakukan yang tidak biasa itu tidaklah mudah. melakukan kebiasaan baru dengan konsisten, lebih tidak mudah lagi. bahkan ketika aku sudah berusaha untuk secara berkesinambungan memegang komitmen. mengesalkan.