Nyasar di Jalan

i have to admit i wasted time not really learning all the available free tools -- very powerful tools -- available at a few keystrokes. you see, i've been using and self-learning free tools more than half of my life. a lot of people i know, won't be caught red-handed using free tools. not me, i love free tools but i just can't make myself learning these free tools seriously. i should, but somehow i wouldn't. and that's bad for me. here i am few years later in life and reading about how this person and that person succeeded in getting life-sustenance (be it fee or commission work or salary) because they learned and learned and spent resources on those free powerful tools. i want to be like them i get distracted easily. using whatever available for oneself, using powerful tools and softwares available, to expand horizon, explore additional avenues and / or source of income(s!), great for people that can do it. for myself, i'm not happy at my own state of life....