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My body just feel terrible. Maybe that's because I spend my day, the whole day, by sleeping and eating and sleeping again. I avoid thinking because that would make me feel dizzy. I try not to wake too lomg because my body felt weak. I eat just that much to not making me woke up from sleep feeling hungry. Also just drink water enough not to wake up because of full bladder but in the same time not to be dehydrated. In short, sloth. Which was a very bad decision from my part because now I felt guilty of wasting such a perfect weather outside, and thinking that tomorrow I might be dead because of heart attack. I might be. The heart attack. Been such a long time since the last time I did serious workout. Now I sport a flabby stomach, very short breath, and shameful stamina. Very unhealthy and not attractive at all. Why not I change? I need to. Because if I did continue like this, it would be better if I buy a gun and kill myself instantly than to suffer slow torturous death. I&#