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Some Decisions Are Just Hard To Make

There are some decisions that you might have to make in this life, and it would need very long time for anything to formulate.

Life's decisions, about things that will affect a lot of aspect in your own life, can be very frightening to make. Your mind could be paralyzed by the fear, afraid of the imagined consequences. If you could, you just let someone else do all the weighing and the decision making. Even better, that person will proceed with all the actions needed and that person -- as long as it was not you -- will bear the consequences.

Oh, if only life is that easy (for some people).

So here I am in a group of people who wouldn't take any decisions, but hate the condition that they are living in. Which is not a happy nor healthy condition to live in. Yet, because of the fear, these people, and to some extent, me included, will be happily let other people to make decisions for us. All because of making decision is a horrible task/responsibility.

I cannot blame people because I don't live their life for all these times that could make me fear of consequences. Result? I do nothing but resent my inaction and indecisiveness.

Now I know that there are still a lot to learn.

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